still the same

"again today

i try to ignore and pass by you

but tears flow

and because it seems like my heart will burst

now i draw out your face

and your name all day"

"even though it hurts, i smile.

when i think of you i can endure it

i can withstand it, i can."

"Orang Ke-3"-HiVi!

Saat berjumpa dan kau menyapa
Indah parasmu hangatkan suasana
Buatku tak percaya, mimpi indahku jadi nyata

Saat sendiri jalani hari
Bayang-bayangmu selalu menghampiri
Dan aku pun mengerti apa maunya hati ini

Namun tiba-tiba kau ada yang punya
Hati ini terluka
Sungguh ku kecewa, ingin ku berkata

Kasih maaf bila aku jatuh cinta
Maaf bila saja ku suka
Saat kau ada yang punya

Haruskah ku pendam rasa ini saja
Ataukah ku teruskan saja
Hingga kau meninggalkannya dan kita bersama

Namun tiba-tiba kau ada yang punya
Hati ini terluka (terluka)
Sungguh ku kecewa (sungguh ku kecewa) ingin ku berkata

Kasih maaf bila aku jatuh cinta
Maaf bila saja ku suka
Saat kau ada yang punya

Haruskah ku pendam rasa ini saja
Ataukah ku teruskan saja

Hingga kau meninggalkannya dan kita bersama

Akankah ada kesempatan untuk diriku menyatakan
Rasa yang selama ini ada

Kasih maaf bila aku jatuh cinta (maaf bila kau jatuh cinta)
Maaf bila saja ku suka (maaf bila saja kau suka)
Saat kau ada yang punya

Haruskah ku pendam rasa ini saja
Ataukah ku teruskan saja
Hingga kau meninggalkannya dan kita bersama

Kasih maaf bila aku jatuh cinta
Maaf bila saja ku suka
Saat kau ada yang punya

Haruskah ku pendam rasa ini saja
Ataukah ku teruskan saja
Hingga kau meninggalkannya dan kita bersama

Quotes: The Best Of Me (By: Nicholas Sparks)

(1) “I want to wake up with you beside me in the mornings. I want to spend my evenings looking at you across the dinner table. I want to share every mundane detail of my day with you and hear every detail of yours. I want to laugh with you and fall asleep with you in my arms.” 

(2)  “Life was messy. Always had been and always would be and that was just the way it was, so why bother complaining? You either did something about it or you didn’t, and then you lived with the choice you made.” 

(3)  “Because you aren't just someone I loved back then. You were my best friend, my best self, and I can't imagine giving that up again." He hesitated searching for the right words. "You might not understand, but I gave you the best of me, and after you left, nothing was ever the same.” 

(4) “Everyone wanted to believe that endless love was possible. She'd believed in it once too, back when she was eighteen. But she knew that love was messy, just like life. It took turns that people couldn't foresee or even understand, leaving a long trail of regret in its wake. And almost always, those regrets led to the kinds of what if questions that could never be answered.” 

Letting Go.

"people left but memories don't" seems to be one of the quote that fits me well. because it's true that you can't expect someone to be by your side forever, they might left even though you don't want them to, and when they left the only things remain are memories. memories we had with them, how they made us laugh, cry, head over heels, fall, sob, and things we can't mention one by one. the way our eyes light up when we saw them, the way our heart beats faster when they approached us, the way things get better when they're around, the way they make us feel, the way they comfort us or even the way they hurt us. but by this, we should start learning to let go and we actually should thank them for teaching us that we can't love someone/something way too much because things like this are temporary, and nothing is forever. it's not easy i know, because to be honest i'm still trying to let go. but i just wish that i finally can let go and move on with my life because i'm sure that person did the same.but there's this one quote from a movie entitled "indecent proposal" it sounds: "if you ever want something so badly, LET IT GO. if it comes back to you, then it's yours forever". so just believe it, if it's yours it'll come back eventually but if it's not yours, something out there is waiting for you.

lots of love, xx.  

introduction

hey, just want to let all you readers know that here, i mostly talk about my feelings, some personal stuffs. i'm not so good at speaking and not so good at writing either but writing is the best way to express my feeling better than talking. so to all you readers, maybe you'll get bored with my writing or you might think i'm so cheesy (truth) but anyway... Bonne lecture!!